My Thoughts…

Phantom Of The Opera is a fine piece of music. I was actually waiting for a chance to watch it in Sydney Opera House. Unfortunately my frenz told me that it isn’t running anymore. I was upset till it was in the cinema. It was a MUST watch. From the start I was wondering how it would be like putting a musical into a movie script. As opening track played as they flashback to the days when the chandelier was still on the ceiling, I was filled with an overwhelming feeling. As the actors and actress sang, I could feel what they were trying to express out through music. The singing really touched my heart that I nearly cried in the cinema.

Though the ending is a sad but happy ending. Raoul could be with Christine but The Phantom went on hiding till the day Christine died. It was then when Raoul place the music box that was describe by Christine at her grave that all know the Phantom is still alive. By her grave, the Phantom place the ring he took from her with a stalk of red rose tied with a ribbon. This helps me to understand the meaning of undying love. It also shows that love doesn’t comes easily. Love is more than what I thought it was. Both have to work hard to make it work and last. Like the story, the Phantom understand that he can’t force Christine to love him and did the hardest thing by letting her go to the one she loves.

It is amazing how music could be used to express their feelings. I really love Andrew Loydd Webster composition. His composition all all beautiful songs. There are some played by Richard Claydermann where he plays the compositions with full of life. Just close your eyes and relax and the music would make its way to your heart and talk to you in its own way

Every night I pray that God would lead my heart,
Closing my eyes and opening my heart to hear His voice,
As He hold my hand and lead me close to Him at heart,
For He has force me but allows me to make my choice.

As He hold you tight in His arms,
I can feel His unconditional love,
He showers us with His goodwills and blessings,
And would protect us with His unending love.

I can’t imagine not having Him by my side,
For He lives and dwells within me,
Following His teachings I must abide,
For He has given me the best by loving me as me.

Every so often I wonder to myself,
Who am I actually,
Racking my brains and not hurting myself,
I couldn’t answer that question truthfully.

There are times I feel so lost,
Lost in a place that isn’t at all familiar,
Am I here willingly or by force,
For everything around me seems to be a liar.

I wonder what am I doing as time passes by,
Am I really going the correct path,
Praying hard  that it is as it passes by,
Hoping that faith would guild my heart.

I’m living in an imaginary world,
Where everything seems peaceful and nice,
For the world outside seems so cruel,
And everything needs to be think twice.

How I wish I’m still young and innocent,
Where all this doesn’t concern me much,
But I have to live up and face the challenge,
For I can’t grow being untouch.

As the night wind whisper into my ears,
I feel so alone sitting at my work desk,
In the distance I could hear happy cheers,
But I’m here alone studying for my test.

There are times I wonder to myself,
Is being lonely a big crime or is it a punishment,
But then I thought hard to myself,
It all depends on how I think and not on others comment.

There are times I fear to be alone,
For it is like dark walls closing in on me,
Fighting the darkness all alone,
Knowing I will survive being just me.

I needn’t fear what lays ahead,
I needn’t fear if I can’t find a companion,
I needn’t worry if I can’t even have any date,
For one day I would reach far beyond the Grand Canyon.

I look ahead with my head held high,
It doesn’t matter if I’m moving ahead in a daze,
For confidence and self believe will lead me by,
Where in future everyone will recognize my face.

This was the first camping trip for me after like 5 years. My last camp was in Grik during high school. This was the one trip I’m allowed to go by my dad and I don’t think I’m allowed to go again after a long time. It was a fun trip. We went trekking to the waterfall area which was breath-taking for me. I love waterfalls The water was cold but refreshing. After that we make it back to camp where we have a BBQ session. I think this is the first time you hear people go camping and BBQ. Unfortunately, I was careless and I accidentally drop a cheese sausage which we then clean it and continue cooking it. I’m sorry whoever ate that piece. There were 2 people that was busy playing with their digi camera there which is E.T. and Xiong Yeu. All pictures are taken from them. Handphone were useless there for no reception for all network which includes Maxis. Muahahaha…

We only spend a night there. Xiong Yeu sure ask weird question when out camping. He suggested to tell ghost story there and shine the torch light to the sky. The few "pantang" things that people don’t do when out camping, he did them The next morning it was difficult to bath in the river for the water was freezing cold. Once pack up, we drove back to Sunway. On the way, we stop at the water damn and took photos. There were lorries passing by and Xiong Yeu’s camera which was on a tripod was at the roadside snapping our picture as the lorry pass by. We scare him by saying the lorry bout to knock down his camera

We stop at Burger King, Jejantas for lunch before reaching back to Sunway. It was an enjoyable trip. Have to thank Yong for organizing the trip and also Mr.Tan for leading the trekking session. Mr. Tan is really an adventurer

To hurt a friends feeling due to stress is not a good excuse,
Friends are not toys that doesn’t have feelings,
By not knowing the true meaning of friendship is an excuse,
For that shows how self centered you are and not care for other feelings.

A friend’s kindness is something they never expect any returns,
The greatest return that comes is just the smile on their faces,
There isn’t any reason for a friend to repay you in return,
For friendship has a high value that would leave you in a daze.

You needn’t know the reason why a friend does something,
As long as it doesn’t go against your heart and instinct,
But you have to be aware of not being easily influence,
For some of them are doing it for their own benefits.

A friends would never influence your view on another friend,
If they do, they are not worth the effort and time,
It’s easy to follow but hard to resist the thinking way of your friend,
But in the end you have to trust you heart at all time.

It may seem hard to resist a request from a person,
For there are fears that you may lose that friend,
But friends are kind and understanding person,
By not forcing they known as your true friend.

You can have a lot of friend,
They come in different background and category,
You need to know who are worth being your friend,
For they are some that would take you granted for their own glory.

Friends that uses friends to get more friends are a disgrace to society,
How can they pretend to be nice when their heart is rotten,
To fool people that they would be a hit to the society,
Where they trash you once done with your used.

Friends are like a family for me when I’m so far from home,
Friends are the one there when you are lonely,
Friends try their best to make you feel at home,
Even it means to forgo their normal routines.

Never would a friends use you weakness against you,
Once they do it is not worth a friend anymore,
How could a friend you treated with kindness do this to you,
To prove they are right they would attack even more.

Does annoying a person unintentionally be given a revenge,
Or has this world change to have so immatured thinking,
What comes around goes back to the vengence,
For I did no wrong and fear not on other people’s thinking.

I’m always true to myself,
There isn’t a need to be someone that I’m not to get friends,
They are my friends for me being just myself,
I respect them as they respect me as their friend.

Torned between two self,
How am I to overcome it,
I can’t always think of my own self,
For it seems to be a selfish deed.

Ever so often I’m not consious on what I’m doing,
I fear I would have offended people along the way,
There are times I don’t know where I’m heading,
But I really hope I’m heading the right way.

I always remind myself to have faith,
For the future is cloudy to me,
Amist the cloud my destiny awaits,
For God has made a way for me.

The table tennis event in conjunction with Monash Sports Carnival was held on the 22 and 23 April 2005. To me it was fun but exhausted. I was part of the organizing team what you expect (-_-")Actually I was the head. Oops Anyway, to me i think it was a fun event for get to play a lot of matches with different players. The gathering with my other friend that enjoy the sport was the fun bit. It has been a long time since we last meet up for such an event. There were a lot of new potential players too.

One thing suck bout being part of the organizing team is, there would be last minute drop outs or change partners for team event where the players are so fickle minded and come interupt your match till you feel like squeezing them (-_-") How I wish all would go on well but these things were expected and I was prepared for it. The thing I screwed up was the score board. I did it in a manner that confused everyone and also myself that a new sheet have to be drawn out. I’m so glad I have a committee that would help me out when I got myself confused and was at the edge of screwing things up.

In the end, guys rulez as they grab hold of all the title available. Me and Ashley (my partner) was lucky to have a spot for the doubles event. I think it was due to her skills that we won (me don’t have enough skill for never use and learn them properly). On the other hand, Ashley was the overall best female player I only hope now is all that took part have a fun time. At least one of my aim was achieve which is to have a fun time.

Last Saturday after badminton, my friend Wei Sern took me, Seng Kiat, Jeremy and Wei Leong to this nasi lemak stall in PJ (somewhere near Atria). It was amazingly cheap. One SMALL pack of nasi lemak was RM0.60. They ate like 5 packets while I took 3. Then we order half boil egg and it was RM0.40. My lunch was only like RM3.50. Cheap rite and it was delicious. Wanna know why it is delicious? The secret recipe, there were a lot of lorries going in and out of that area to fill the land with soil. Ahahaha…Now you know. Good food not necessary  means high class restaurant. Shops at the roadside which is dirty and cheap could serve you better taste food then in high class restaurant like Monte’s etc. Hehehe…