My Thoughts…

I wonder how come there are some friends that are fake. In the outside they are so good but at your back they “backstab” you. They would then spread fake things bout you and get others to misunderstand you. I wonder how can they be people like this out there.
I was once used by a girl who take me for granted for I was nice to her. I let her over-step me. I would agree to her no matter how I don’t like it just to make her happy. It sounds like I was being manipulated also. I’m not ashame to say that I WAS MANIPULATED!!!
Who is that person? I think that person knows it better than me. But now she can still consider me as friend as she gives me cold shoulders and expect me to be saying I am sorry for something that I don’t know I did wrong and try to make things back like last time. Sorry to say but I’m sick and tired of this game. I want out of this. I have enough. If you are my friend, you would let me know when I did something to hurt you and not let me go guessing when I didn’t do anything. Worst, spread rumours bout me which is untrue and let others think differently of me.
Too bad, you can continue being childish to do that. I can’t be bothered. Why? I know who are my friends now. If they know me, they don’t need to stand up for me also. They would know who I really am and decide to believe the rumours or not. It is up to them and the best part is that they are not easily influence to follow what others say but what their heart tells them. I admire this friends of mine. Sorry if there is one person who thinks she is one of those I admire but she is one that I pity the most.
This is a girl that just can’t let go of vengence even on something that has nothing to do with me. There is a surprise that she plan that didn’t went well but I got the blame for I tried to help make it work but in the end failed. What easier way other than to put blame on others and not yourself. Then spread the word and tell others bout it and make it a huge issue when it is just a tiny misunderstanding and give cold shoulders to me.
I pity this girl. Everyone thinks she has a good heart. A giving heart but actually to me is a rotten heart. Why I say so? To show others that her heart is pure but at their backs it is the opposite. She can help you in your problems then tell others negative remarks on you. She backstab more than others but say others do it to her. How sad. How mess up her mind.
You may put on a show by helping others and talk big bout who you help and all the good deeds you did. But is it necessary? That is a question? We help for our hearts are sincere and not hoping for anything back and some of us like to be known as “Phantom”. But who can be so ridiculous and want the entire world to know all the good deeds she does. Worst, she thinks she is religious or very HOLY by spreading the word of God. But does she respect God? I know I have no right to ask this but I want to know. How can she refer to God in small case? How can she pass the word of the Lord round just to be known as someone holy or good at heart. It make me sick and want to puke at times.
How can she pass the word to me and take me as a friend when in my face treat me as though I don’t exist. I tried to be friendly and smile to make things not so bad but she refuse but want others to know I’m the one who has a problem when it is the opposite. I don’t go round talking bad on others for I think LOSERS only do that. All I have to say is just stop faking it and just show your true colour. I’m sick and tired of your stupid act. You can continue to act in front of others but just stop it for me for I’m so SICK of the DAMN ACT!!!
Thank you if that particular girl still thinks I’m a problamatic person. Go ahead and continue to tell others for I just don’t care. Do what you like for I’m just SICK being used and fooled by you. It was my mistake to be nice to you and ignore my feelings that you aren’t that nice and don’t deserve to be known better but it is sad that those six sense of mine is true again this time. Wish that girl all the best to survive in this world with her SUCKY ATTITUDE and I really PITY the bf. Wish him all the best and may he SURVIVE.
I fall but I will get back up. No one would know the meaning of failing if they are scare. Learn from it is the best. Never be ashame of it for there are a lot that go through this but not brave to admit it. Like a phrase from the Bible that the girl send to me,” Before they call, I will answer”. I believe it for I have sense how she could be like before knowing her better and what I feel describe her attitude and character PERFECTLY.

I can say that I’m quite a reckless driver when I was younger. I was a bit like daredevil. But now I still love to do so but when I’m alone in the car. But not so much on the stunts but I love it when speeding. There makes me fill like I’m out of the world. Till today, this is what I like most when driving.
I do admire those that drives in this manner but with complete control of the car. I wish to be like them but I know I can’t for I love my life more than to risk it There was once a bus was turning in a tight corner and my car was parked at the corner, the driver did such an amazing job that it didnt hit my car but have reasonable space between the bus and my car. I really admire that driver’s skill Unfortunately, there are many drivers who are really reckless. I would say the lorry and bus drivers are the main one. I’m scare of the way they handle the vehicle. They think they are driving a car and not bother bout the safety of other road users. Accidents from this vehicles are increasing each day.
I was in a bus one day when it cut the traffic light. The bus was so far from the traffic light. After the light turn red, he still drive on. Lucky for the motocyclist then. He wanted to move but lucky he didn’t if not there would be a messy accident.
Another incident was when I was driving home on the North-South Highway. I was nearly hit by 2 different buses. They just come out to the fast lane without signalling nor looking. I was nearly hit twice in this incident.
Today, it isn’t bout how save we drive but how safe others drive also. Even we are careful, there are careless driver who would knock their car into ours. So we have to be careful all the time no matter what. I know there are some ways where it is our right of way, but we have to be extra careful now for not everyone follow the basic rules of driving anymore.
Another accident that I was nearly involve on the highway was when cars slow down to see an accident which happen around the highway. The car in front of me was extra excited I think for it has to stop suddenly when passing the site. The care behind me who was picking up speed have to sweef for I step on the breaks when the car in front suddenly break to “kepo” more on the accident. My heart nearly flew out when I saw the car behind nearly hit me.
We have to be considerate when on the road. Not everyone would give you way or practise defensive driving. I remember my dad make sure I know what is defensive driving before I was let to drive on my own. Hardly much people practise this and accidents are becoming a frequent news in the media and papers.
So what are we to do to be better drivers? That I don’t know for it varies from different people. As for me, someone who love speed, have started to slow down in my driving and be extra careful. I still would respect those that go fast but in full control or the vehicles. But I would really wonder again if those reckless one refuse to admit they are and go on doing it.

How is it that only minority of this people are down to earth? Mostly those that are rich lives in a whole where they don’t care much bout anything other than their own self first. It seems hopeless to talk to them for they have a perspective in their mind and everyone is forced to follow.
Why would people follow? They are rich!!! Rich means power also. I think those rich are fools. Why I say that? Those are not the money they earn. Those are the money their parents work hard on and still working harder to earn more. If not where got enough to give their kids who has high taste and high demands. Don’t give money, treathen the parents. Say don’t buy them a car, they move out. Don’t give in their demands, they don’t want to study. Parents sure give in for eduaction is important. As long the kids stay in college, they would entertain all their demands even some are ridiculous.
I find this people immature, childish, inconsiderate etc. They only think that money can buy everything including friends and popularity. I pity those that think that way. Childish for want things their way and can’t accept if it isn’t. They would suck, pout, throw tantrums till you give in. If not they would give you cold shoulder and bad mouth bout that person who dares to go against their wishes. They would make a small matter into a big issue that is like life treathing issue. I was once caught in that situation.
People would please them hoping to be popular or accepted in that group. These people are like dogs to the rich kids for following their demands. These people are more like slaves to the rich kids. The rich kids are said inconsiderate for what is important is their personal welfare and no one else. Some would like to be rocognize so do donation. Do they really want to donate or putting a show to make people see a fake side of them to buy popularity? No one likes to brag bout making donation of be in the press for this. Those that want to have name only do that and mostly the rich kids.
They are also known as snobs. They look down at people who aren’t that rich. Richness doesn’t buy everything. The richness a person can own is to be content with what they have and make use of what they have. These rich kids are actually the one to pity and not the poorer ones. There is this phrase, “What you say bout others actually reflect back on the individual itself”.
I’m having trouble living with a rich kid in the hostel. First day she moved in, we wanted to give a warm welcome but she coolly tell me and my housemates that she only staying for 2 months. Staying till her own apartment is ready for her to move out. What type of attitude is this? Younger one talking somemore. Now she has to shut that mouth for she isn’t moving out. But worst, my room is in a mess. It look extremely messy with cables running all over the place and plastic bags stuff at a corner. Her things are not arrange at all and her extra stuff all kick under the bed. She hardly do any cleaning. I was away for a week and when I came back there was a pill of dirt when I sweep the floor and she insist that she did sweep. My housemate who are in say she never see her sweep but always say that my room was extremely noisy when I was away.
She was having the fun of her life blasting her laptop speakers, watching movie and using MSN. She uses the winks and nudge in MSN at a loud volume that from close door it can be hear till outside the hall. When she talk on the phone in the room, my housemate that pass-by can hear her talking as they make their way to the bathroom (my room is situated next to the bathrooms). I tried talking to her but seems she turn a deaf ear to it. From the way she act, she is like a spoilt brat, inconsiderate, snob etc. She don’t mix with anyone in the apartment. The housemates try to be friendly to her but she was too “high class” to mix with us, the housemate, who are rated as “low class”.
She is constantly on the phone. I wonder, has the phone rate drop that much that a person can be on the phone 24/7. She charge her phone everyday and it is a brand new phone. Her laptop is always left charging also. She doesn’t know how to take care of this stuff. True also. All she need is to use and not take care. Once spoil very easy. Tell parents then get a new one.
Rich kids would forever be like this unless they know how to think. The money your parents own are not yours. One day it can run out so don’t be too proud. Be more ground to earth and be considerate on people around for we are all the same. Money doesn’t make a difference if we are content with what we have around us.

How many people listen to this radio channel? I think not many. A lot would be listening to hitz.fm or mix.fm but I find this two are a bit not right for me. The music industry moving to fast tempo music that sound augmented and not pleasing to my ears I like the variety of songs on light and easy. If I’m given a chance I would like to explore their collection of songs But I wonder how to get the songs? Download? Hard to download now a days Or can say I am lazy Ocassionally I would listen to mix.fm but not hitz.fm. Try and listen to light and easy. It is really relaxing. It’s like going back in time where everything not as complicated as the world here today.
Light and easy the radio station of my choice Hope I can visit the station one day and see how they work there and look through their song collection and maybe take some songs from them I can dream bout it hehe

I simply don’t understand how some people don’t like or can’t get along with small kids? They are so cute and adorable. Ok there are some who are naughty but that are only the minority.
I have 2 cousins that are below 6 years and they are adorable. There are times they are naughty but when they want to be nice they really melt your heart. Each time I visit them, I would be greeted with loud cheers from them. They are so excited and happy. They are extra hyper and energetic.
There was once they were tired but refuse to sleep for fear I would be there when they get up. My visits normally last longer than intended for they just won’t let me go. But eventually they got used to it for I would visit them frequently.
When I feel stress out or feeling low in spirit, they never fail to bring it back up. They would come in those adorable twinkling eyes and look at you with adoration. They would talk to you with the sweetest voice you ever hear. And their laughters are so full of life.
Other than that, I have a cousin who I saw her since a baby till now going to be 14 years. She can rough and mischievous at times but she is a sweet girl. She does it to attract attention that’s all. We exchange emails and poems She is a talented poet in progress. She remembers the time spend at my place when she was young and she misses it. I’m glad that I gave her some sweet memories in her younger days that make us close together.
When she was young, she wake up early then jump on my bed to wake me up. Normally we would feel irritated that they disturb your sleep but in a way, sleep can always be replace in the afternoon where she is sleeping also. When she think back, she felt bad but it makes you feel important that they have to wake you up last time I still wonder, what is it that makes people dislike small kids? They are noisy, irritating at times, mischievous, naughty and at times cry baby. But replace all this with their sweet smile, lively laughters, cute faces, sweet voice calling you and they just being who they are, cute, innocent and adorable. It can make a difference. Books actually don’t teach you much but mixing with them, you learn more than the books. Books are only guideline. Try approaching them and you might see and feel different

Innocence. It is say to be like a clean piece of white sheet. But who are the one who are actually innocent?
We normally think that we are innocent which isn’t completely true. The mind of a small child are always the most innocent one. They might learn fast but whatever they do, they are always innocent. Why I say that?
When we are young, we are taught what we are to do. If we learn something off the television or something we saw, we don’t really know if it is right or wrong. We pick up things that amaze us without knowing the meaning of it.
As for us grown ups, we know how to think for ourselves. We should know what is consider good influence and bad influence. So we have ourselves to blame instead of the little ones We need to sit and think thought who we really are. How is our attitude and character? Then improve the bad things in our life. Sometimes there are somethings that make us who we are that is hard to change but there is something good bout it also. So change what is needed but remain as who we are. There isn’t any individual that are identical Know who we are and who we want to be and do. That is the important thing

Does anyone believe in sixth sense??? Many of us has it but we just don’t realize it. I have it too but I don’t practise it. I have a friend who practise it and whoa!!! For me I follow my feelings. If i sense something not right, I would back out first not knowing what it is but know it isn’t good. But those feelings are accurate. most of us brush it off as just feelings, how accurate? Mine I can say 80% accurate.

Normally the phrase,”Never Judge a Book from Its Cover”, always imply to everyone. It too imply to me but my first feeling to the person is normally accurate. Once I get to know them better, my guard on them would rise. I make a mistake once for ignoring that feeling and I got hell into trouble.

Deja Vu is also something like sixth sense also I think but slight different. It is like you have been there before but not quite sure when you were there before. I have that quite often and normally I dream it out first.

When you meet someone with this gift also, you would find how amazing that you feel bout the same bout all this things. We can sense certain things we can’t quite explain. But those that really use it for the good course, they can feel it better and know roughly what it is compare to others. I’ll take this as a gift and we are to use it for the good and not evil. It is sad some use it for bad purposes and we in this society don’t really believe in this.

May the good force help us to prevent the evil from overwritting the good ones