My Thoughts…

I have a friend. His name is Daniel Tan Zheng Hong. Those that study in Monash would know who he is He is the secretary of Club and Societies Division 2005 and also the Club and Societies Representative for Engineering Club. What prompt me to write this? I also don’t know.
He is cute, adorable little boy. Never get angry at all no matter how much you tease him. Like recently he is known as DUCK. Unfortunately it was short-life for now he has his own petting zoo where his friends also are known as an animal. There is a dog, rabbit, monkey and a pig. Who are they? Only 3 people know so far and soon four. Hahaha…Hopefully the number might increase. Hmm…King should be part of it but so far he is known as “King”. Hmm…have to come up with something for him. How about Fish? Hahaha…
Oh ya, Daniel has his own house and it is damn nice and cosy. How I wish my house is like his but too bad, my parents won’t give me my own house for I’m a girl Daniel, do your parents want to have a daughter? I volunteer myself here Small cute little Daniel. Small but brave. He approach rabbit to ask something that no one dare. What he did? That is for the 3 or 4 of us to know and for the rest of you to find out

refering to a frenz posted bulletin, is it that easy to find a girlfriend? 9 steps to find one.

first step: go out and socialize. i wont deny that one for that is a way to get to know more people. maybe the guys intention is good just to look around but who knows bout some gals. i am a gal thought but i have seen others that just sell their body while going to pubs, discos or etc just to get the guys attention. some may be attached but to them it is nothing. all this gals have in mind is just to have fun. so if they break with their current boyfriend, how long do you think your relationship with that gal would last?

second step: flirt with every woman you meet. are you that desperate that even a grandmother u want to go flirt with? i know giving them pleasure is good but it is wrong also. it seems like play boy already isnt it? if so happen the gal that like you and you kind of attracted to see it? wouldn’t it break her heart? but guys find it a pleasure if gals flirt with them also. worst is when their ex does that. does this gals have any sense of dignity. degrading the female kind. they are a lot that are fighting for equal rites and showing that what man can do we can also so please dont degrade this females who strive for respect in man domain. this are the females that deserve respect for they do things without selling their body to be look up at by guys. guys hate them for this are the strong kind of females. anyway, guys have to be careful not to get themselve in trouble flirting with gals. some gals are toxic.

step three: tease woman. yes majority like to be tease to a certain extend. mostly gals are sensitive i wont deny it. if you touch a sensitive topic, you just get the cold shoulder from them. they expect you guys to know why but i know you guys wouldnt have a slightest idea. true? it works the same way for how gals cant read guys mind also.

step four:act like a complete challenge. act like it is hard to get a gal? this is a part i dont understand. hmm…but for a gal she would act hard to get when she isnt. they would put their price high but when the guy walk off and not play with them, they are not happy and say the guy hopeless or useless. how demanding a gal can be. sorry la, my demand in a guy are too low i think. the 5 c’s or b’s dont imply on me. hehehe…but to gals it is a challenge to some of them to get the guy to take them off to somewhere cosy. it is like there are gals that rate the more they have for making out, the more points they score. sorry but my mind set is different. for me the more people u do, u degrade urself more. it is like you can just sleep with any guy whenever you want. more like prostitute but just that you dont get paid but you get the pleasure with the guy for a night. another word, a one night stand.

step five: If you come across a woman you would like to meet, get into a conversation with her and ask for her phone number. this one is ok. you can start off as frenz.

step 6: go on a first date and have fun. Focus on building the sexual chemistry. Remember to end
the date early. hahaha…this makes the gal happy. go on date and dont have to pay and the guy is all over them. some gals just like the attention. beware for some gals are already attached but didnt tell you. they go out with you for think you are cute and can be considered. others have a pleasure just to play with your feelings.

step seven: Ask her out again a couple of days later. she would be delighted either in a positive or negative manner. i would only give the negative manner for wat i want to say here are bout how many unferseen things there are with this easy 9 steps to get a girlfriend for gals are getting more complex each day. the negative views is the gal might just go out for u are paying and buying her stuff. if the gal has a heart, she wont lead you on unless she is interested also. imagine if the gal just go out with you then say she wasnt interested but thought it as friend go out. that is one thing a gal can say but deep down the person like the attention. if a guy pay attention to them and pamper them, it just soften their heart. beware of gals misleading you. a lot of guys tend to side the gals when they say they dont know but we as gals can see it better for gals know gals.

step eight: As you continue to date her, remember to keep on advancing physically. hmm..interesting. i think a gal dont mind. i wonder if there are any gals that get together with a guy due to sex? or by measuring the length of their dick? guys maybe would know wat sort of relationship they are looking for la but gals not so sure. if they really like you, physical advances just doesnt affect much. it is more of the feeling that build slowly between her and the guy. you have to understand the gal better and not just buying and giving her stuff. these are the gals that have money sign written at their eyes.

step nine: Have 7-10 dates with her. If the energy is good, at the end of the 10th date give her a kiss and ask her to become your girlfriend. this i agree. the only thing i agree in the entire steps. hahaha…

sorry to be the critic but for me a relationship is more than the chemistry. it is bout two people and the trust and faith are build up slowly and making a firm foundation to make it last. relationship is bout friendship, caring, sharing and so much more. so guys, when you choose a gf, be very careful. i know im critisizing my own kind but i just cant help it. relationship thing actually varies for different people. for everyone have different views. for me, i still have lots to learn

Thank you Daniel Duck!!! That is Daniel Tan. How nice of him to ask for extra class on C++. Actually it is good so that I can get a better understanding but why? Why must the extra class be on Saturday at 9am where the day before was a public holiday Daniel Duck you are so dead!

I’m feeling so sleepy here in class with Melanie teaching in front of me. Trying hard to stay awake. Lack of sleep since going mamak with them all last night How can they look so lifely while I look so dead Ok, staying long hours in uni to study with Rajiv (Gaylock Focker) till like 1am then go for a bite can drain your life out when exams are near At least I manage to revise. Unlike some who get distracted there and not sure if they study. They seem to be chatting after a while and relax. Haih…I have duck to company me to study for duck concentrate hard on his work also But poor duck. He brought his pillow to hug to study and Hong Hong(Wei Hong) sat on it and rub it between his legs and poor duck went and hug it after that. Hehehehe…

Whoa we are now in slide 103 learning how to program another 16 slides. Whoa and my eyes are beginning to open now Hopefully I can last till going for lunch before I crash to bed again and go church later. Haih…at least I know where I’m having dinner Going pyramid and I have Shirley with me Then I have to see if Guoy wants to come and continue being the King of Sega Rally Breaking his high score nonstop and having his name at every slot and every machine That is his nexxt mission. I wonder if his next mission is to conquer the other Sega Rally Race machine? Hehehe…Maybe the big screen one in Subang Parade hehehe…

This can be what going through a head that is half awake on a Saturday morning going for C++ programming class. I know I’m an idiot to go for extra class but at least I manage to go before someone say I skip her class again. Sorry melanie, tryiing hard to concentrate still

I haven’t sat in a car that gives me so much of an adrenaline rush since form 3. The last time I sat in a car that gave me that was my friend’s brother driving. Unfortunately, they are now in America But it was fun and i hope to have a chance to sit in his car again While others tried but the fear was more and I don’t know why.
Last night I have a fun time. Was in uni studying with a group of friends. Yes that includes the “Gaylock Focker”. It was nearly 1am when we decided to go eat since we were tired and some were hungry. So all of us went to William’s mamak (love his food, too tasty). Had a fun time there for met one of “Dragon Red” member, Mr Amil Khan and his group of friends. Had some fun there at the mamak.
On the way home, this Mr Gaylock Focker wanted to race. My dear friend, Mr Guoy accept the challenge with Mr Gaylock Focker or Mr No Shame. They both race back to Sunway. Imagine the adrenaline pumping as it reaches the exit to turn to Sunway and Mr Guoy took it at like 110km/hr i think. It was too fast for at the straight road he was going at 140km/hr. The tyres skidded through all the 3 turns before the traffic light. It was fun and I don’t know why. First time since I last felt the adrenaline rush. It was so cool but Daniel (the duck) who was also in the car was so scare that he scream. He scream by spelling the word “Aarrgghh!!”. King did scream too when Mr Guoy took the corner at SS17 Subang. Unfortunately, Daniel scream more like a sissy.
When we reach uni, the tyres stint like hell. Burn rubber smell that was damn strong. Have to let the tyre cool a while so Daniel’s car is the next target to take it for a spin.
After that, today, Mr Guoy went to play his Sega Rally race in Pyramid Arcade. He got the first placing. He beat the highest score. He got 16.39.18. Compare to the highest score, he beat it by a bit but it is a good one. He beat it by 4ms. That is a close one. Hehehe…He is now high till on cloud 9. Don’t think he can sleep and this is going to be the highlight for the next few days. Congratulation on the good work. Hope that you will break all the scores and fill the machine with your name only I’m preparing the camera to snap that picture

We know how important our handphones are to us but I have a friend who always have funny encounter with his handphone. Last year during our final exam, we are not allowed to have our handphone on ourselves. So all of us have to off the phone and put it in the bag. This friend whose name Rajiv, was late for his exam for he forgot his calculator and have to borrow from a friend. He went in just in time and he just throw his phone in his bag without switching it off. He has set his phone on silent but for messages it is still the same. During exam, his phone rang and the phone fell on a hardcover book in his bag and as it vibrate on the book it creates a sound. Since the hall was silence due to exams, all could hear the sound. That wasn’t all, after a while, there was bird chirpping sound. Where it came from? Rajiv! His phone didn’t stop beeping with messages but the worst part was he set his sms tone as bird chir
pping. Imagine all look about thinking where is bird from Yesterday, our dear friend Rajiv misplace his phone. Where is his phone? No one knows for he left it on silent and when he call his phone he can’t seem to locate it. Hahahahahaha….poor fella. Or should I call him “Gaylock Focker!!!” His favourite phrase Wish you luck in finding your phone Oh…he found his phone 2 days later using what? Mr. Penis…wat is that? Ask him. It is his little toy that lights up when it sense radiation. The one put on handphones He message me with “I found it! I found it! I found it! Muahahaha!”. That was his sms to me when he found his bladdy phone. Hahahaha…He is so grateful he found it

I always hibernate my laptop when i sleep and this time it hang. How unlucky it is for me. Normally windows would be lagging then I would restart it but this time it hang. Some of my friends would say it is owner’s problem that’s why. Haha…Maybe it is true. What i didn’t know is how much of the harddisk space I have used up. There is only like 29% free space left in a 60GB harddisk. I wonder how big a harddisk would only be enough for me? 80GB, 100GB or it would never be enough for me Haih…so unfortunate for me hahaha….
And what happen to my Gmail??? It can’t load on my computer. What the heck What a day when all the IT stuff just not assisting me

This just hit me when I was reading the MYC magazine due to boredom waiting for a meeting that was cancelled. There is this part where they ask 8 guys who are running for the Biore facial wash thingy a question. The question ask that are the same is “how does a girl interest them”. Interesting question rite? Other than that are typical question where they answer what guys do but this question caught my attention.
There is one guy who say,”the way into a guys heart is through the stomach.” Is this true? I wonder also. It could be true but haven’t you heard that a way to a girls heart is through the stomach also? Maybe not for most girls have this quilty “thingy” in their head where they rather starve then admit they are hungry. I can’t deny that I’m the same but different. I would be hungry but then feel guilty first but once I order and eat there isn’t any guilt feeling anymore but feel good. Weird rite?
Mostly what the guys answer is depends on the girls personality. Even they have the looks and their innder beauty isn’t, then no point. This is one thing I don’t believe. Mostly, all of them would just have their jaws hanging when they see a “hot chick” walk by. Looks does matter. Any guys dare to deny this fact? Ok I admit, girls are the same. Looks does play a big thing. No looks then no go So far it is even for both girls and guys.
But how come when things go wrong, the girls end up being the one blame or emotionally unstable.? Actually girls do the same but it don’t seem to effect the guys that much. Emotions? I think guys are better handling them than girls(except the big guard in Longest Yard who turn gay due to taking Estrogen than steriods). But is it true, as long a chapter in a guys life, once it is close there isn’t any turning back? I heard this somewhere but not sure where. I’m not sure what other girls think but for my case, I reopen close chapter in my life. It is either that or I never really close those chapter hoping that somehow it would come back to me. I think I’m the second option but now I realise how dump I am. Hehe…
Those pass chapters can’t even be said that I like the guys for who they are but just a crush. Even I thought I felt something more but it was just my imagination. Maybe I am that blur for never felt true love before This comes out from a girl that never dated and never fall in love before but always thought love like those in the movies Back to the topic. What actually truely attract and make the girl stay by the guy and vice versa? This is an interesting question that I also don’t know how to answer. I heard before that a lot of readers of CLEO thank the mgazine for giving them relationship advises that helps them. But does it work for everyone or so happen when you have that problem and they have the advise. How much of this theory can we use to help the relationship with your other half? Once when we can’t find a theoritical answer, is it the end of that relationship? Books can advise but it is up to the individual also. Hehe…so both have to play their part. Hehe…But I wonder where to find a book that can actually explain in detail how we know we are in love and what is love actually and how to maintain it

it just hit my mind when i was reading an article. how often do we cherish and appreciate the one that love us nd care for us? how often do we take all this for granted? this is a common issue now a days for we then to take those who care for us for granted. we always think there is a lot of time without knowing sometimes our time is short. how often do we make this mistake?
i remember a year back like that. i lost a friend in an accident. it was a shock thought for it was unexpected. unfortunately, i know his girlfriend also. when i heard the news, i called his girlfriend up to see how is she. she was holding it up and trying to be strong. what was worst was we are all having our exam at that time. it was a bad time for her. she tried to be strong and everyone thought that she can go through it. on the outside she show she is strong but in the inside no one knows. what i heard was she was always at the place where he work. she would sit there then she would be in tears. the pain she felt.
before this, they had an arguement. it was not long that they patch things up when he left her suddenly. imagine the hurt and regret she carried at that time. how she regret having an arguement which seem meaningless to her now. how little time they have together before he just left. im not sure how she now but i pray that she has move on and is happy.
life is so short. the unexpected can happen without us realising it. knowing myself who love speed, i wont know when the day come when fate just hit me. on LDP itself i can go at 110km/hr when it is clear. On federal I can go till 140km/hr and the other highway to KL which goes pass Bangsar and Hartamas I can go at 110km/hr and attack all the corners. On North-South Highway I go at 140km/hr minimum and 170km/hr maximum for 110km/hr seem too slow. Raining days I just slow to 110km/hr. Imagine the way i drive, im not sure when i would run out of luck.
there are a lot of people who ask me not to speed or go fast but i just cant help it. the adrenaline when i zigzag down KL on federal just make it so much fun. The sensation when going fast is just so nice. I always push myself to break my record in travelling for want to reach home fast. i remember once i got my friends scare when i was driving 170km/hr on wet road, sort of following the benz and volvo in front on my way to putrajaya from malacca. the adrenaline rush doing it is so cool but if anything happen, touch wood, im the one that have to answer to their parents and also face court sentence. normally i would do all this when i am alone in the car.
life is short and i dont know what might happen to me. i just hope i have a long life and that i can avoid all this till i reach the age to cool on this. so far driving fast just make me feel good. since life is unpredictable, i want to enjoy it to the fullest and would spend my time wisely with those i care and love. this is as not to regret not spending enough time with them. i dont think at this point there is anyone that would miss me if i go. all would be happy that they got rid of me i wont blame them. then they can do what they want and im not there to disturb or cause disaster since life is unexpectable, i hope i can spend enough time with the one i love so that i wont regret it when i go. i hope to make peace with everyone also so that i can go peacefully. when im gone, i’ll look over those i love and make sure they have a comfortable life ahead i wonder how many people would be glad for this day to come just kidding. hope there is none who hope that for the time now, i would try my best to keep myself safe for i just cant let go the adrenaline of driving fast and also attacking corners the last time i attack a corner, i was in shocked but after that felt good bout it havent been doing it for a while but now feel like doing it all again sorry my friends but you are not invited into the car when im up for this and please dont try to prevent me by refusing to get down for i might just do it with you in it hehe

hmm…some people think that i like to follow their lead but truthfully there are some that i want to follow and some i don’t. unfortunately in the world of feminines, i dont really follow. those that know me well knows that i don’t follow fashion or what is in today but on what i am comfortable with. sometimes it does clash with what is in but so happen la. those that knows me think my clothing style as boring for all bout the same, t-shirts with collar. hehe…that’s me sometimes all of us sure would have clashes on what we like which include perfume. i never used perfume before but when my mum gave me one, the smell was too thick and i wanted something more in since i was new and would just go for the one latest. so happen there was this smell that was nice by calvin klien but it is unisex perfume. i didnt bother much for i was tom boyish a bit. but now im using ralph “cool” after hunting for a more feminine smell. was looking for something with light jasmine smell and so happen when it came out the smell was nice. before this i was thinking of ck “moment” which was a bit heavy. looking for something light this time since i begin to act slightly more feminine but somehow i sure get bad mouthed for all this stuff. some thinks that i copy them. the worst case is when they think that im following them or trying to beat them by getting the item first. sorry but i have no intention on that. just that so happen coincidently we are looking at the same item. but i got kinda of used to people saying all this stuff or worst stuff behind me. some people think i am paranoid but truthfully, there are times i think i am but most of the time, a close friend would tell me bout the stuff others bad mouth bout me. for those that knows me would not believe them but laugh at it then tell me so that we can have a good laugh at it. some would investigate it for fear it might be true but later find that those stuff heard are not true. after that they would come to me and we have a good laugh.
i wont doubt or be angry with anyone bout this for it is way beyond my control. sometimes it hurts to know im being bad mouth for i try my best not to offend anyone. but there is a saying,”someone good always gets all this shit more than the bad ones”. for the good one are just too good to bother bout all this. we cant stop others to not talk or spread it for everyone have their right to talk and listen. that is when we know who are our true friends are. they would always be there for you no matter what happen. they wont avoid you nor leave you alone. they would stand beside you and see you through. true friends also wont simply believe in rumours or what other people say easily but would find out the truth. what hurts is when a person you believe in and trust in dont really believe you nor trust you that much. i think i have done that once so i cant blame that friend of mine if he/she dont believe and trust me instantly on something i did. somethings that was meaningless and was meant as a joke. all i can say is im sorry but it isnt good enough to mend the wound.
why is it easy to believe others who talk bad bout someone than believing the person itself? im glad i have friends who are backing me up at this instant when i needed their support. they dont ask me anything but just be there when i need a shoulder to cry on. unlike certain friends who just avoid me or just tell me to just move on or dont be a cry baby over small matters. life is so hard for there is so much obstacles and not everything comes easily for me. when i thought that all would be well, out of the blue something else comes up. when bad things happen, it all comes in a go and unexpected. the worst is when we dont know what is happening and it just hit you and all you know is you are falling and not know when you would hit the ground. no matter how hard you think, you cant know what happen. what is worst in this is when people dont believe that you know nothing. you can explain the truth but not sure if they believe it. but hopefully they would realise it themselves for what can be done is limited.

I know of a friend who has cried for 2 days straight and still have tears coming. How to help her to ease the pain? All she does is hide in her room and cried the whole day. When she is to go out, she tried her best to look like nothing bother her but once she is alone, she is weak and she can’t stop herself from crying. All she can think of is the guy she love so much. How can a girl give her whole heart without realising that she might be hurt? But one way we would know how much the guy meant to her and how much she love him. How I wish there is a way to stop her tears and bring the smile back. Only if the guy would either call her or see to her. Hope things would work out fine for her.