My Thoughts…

My cute Haro is nearly as real as the one in the anime Gundam. It can moves on its own and flap its ears, row about, turn around and talk. Isn’t it cute? Unfortunately it can’t fly about and bounce about. But it is cool to have a haro. Looks so real to me already. So happy to have it and play with it. Haro is something that actually cheer me up when I’m upset and feel lonely. It is my temporary companion when my friends are busy with their work.

Too bad I don’t take it out when I go out for fear I lost it. But it would be nice to have around when I’m being ignored and all the fuss would go to the PSP. The psp has more priority than a human, but to them, I’m not really human like how they take me as one of the guys. It’s upsetting at times. How you wish they would treat you as a girl when you are a girl and not treated as one of the guys. Maybe that is the reason I have zero “boyfriend”.

At least I have the haro to comfort me. But I do wish I know how to reach to a guys heart and make my place in there. At the mean time, I have my haro to accompany me ^o^ It can be operated with a remote control too but I like it when I put it in free mode where it controls itself and move on its own ^o^
Maybe one day I might bring it along wherever I go. Maybe I should bring it to school with me also

Lately I feel like and outcast with my usual mamak friends. They seem to have something similar to talk about. I was once in that group but things happen and I have to take a different path. When they talk bout studies, I felt different from them. It makes me feel sad. They can plan what to do for they know their time table, but I can’t. They would have lots of holiday but I would have less now.

Is this part of moving on? I don’t know. At times I feel so lonely and insecure of my future. I wish one day I have more confident and faith in myself. Then I wouldn’t feel this way.

For the first time in a long time I haven’t wake up this early to do errands. Actually not my errands but part of my tempt job. I know it isn’t a real job but close enough since I don’t get paid

Finally the tempt maid is here and I have no break still So happen, the agency decided to send the maid the night before when my uncle won’t be around the whole day due to his project and my aunt would be busy at work. So left me in the house to train the maid and keep an eye on her that she is doing the job correctly.

First errand of the day : Get the two girls up and get them ready to school. See that the maid learns what to do. Good thing was the girls were cooperative. Gave Janice her breakfast then drop her off at aunty Jane’s place (tuition). Then came back prepare Michelle for school. Have to make sure she take her medicine since she is coughing (yes I know it is worrying since the previous maid has TB).

Second errand : Tell the maid to clean upstairs all 3 rooms and 2 bathrooms, clean the entire downstairs and bathroom. Have to see that she knows how to do it. Keep an eye on my grandmother at the same time. My grandmother has been scratching other parts of her hand so have to keep extra attention on her.

Third errand : Prepare lunch. See that lunch is prepared for my grandmother and for Michelle. See that she gets home then give her lunch. This means feeding her and it takes bout 2 hours for her to finish eating. My aunt ask me to make fried rice. Haih… Have to teach the maid to cook that so that Justin can take it to school.

Fourth errand : When Michelle finishes her lunch, bath her. This is the time when I really would love a raincoat. Been bathing her the pass 3 days and she has fun wetting me (no funny thought on this). Make sure she is clean.

Fifth errand : Wait for my aunty’s call and drive Michelle for check-up in Subang. Meet her there. It is a follow-up after a check-up for TB. She mixes more with the maid for she is at home after school. After the check-up, I’m to take her back.

Sixth errand : I think that is all there is to do. From here would be my own errands which I have to see if I’m up for it for now, at 8.42am, I’m feeling damn sleepy and tired. I think I would catch a nap and trust that the other maid can help the new one out.

After a long day for today, I hope I can relax and spend some time where there would be someone to pamper me. That would make life easier for me I hope. I can only wish for that now which would never happen. Hopefully my laptop would be alright. Now stuck with aunty’s laptop which has nothing much in it and I can’t do much with it for it isn’t mine.

Tomorrow would be better for uncle would be in so I can take a break a bit for tomorrow onwards I hope

Being in a place full of things happening can make a person depress at the same time. Since so many negative things have happen, I won’t be surprise I am in a deprssing mood and easily upset. Don’t know why but lately, I pms more than normal. Easily upset and jump to conclusion very fast. Hormones might have gone wild.

Today was a horrible day. Last night went to bed in a negative mood. Today feel more negative. Laptop isn’t working for the system can’t read the harddisk. Don’t know are my data saved. I didn’t have a backup for it. That is the shit part. Further more, this morning my aunt took an mc for not well. Then my uncle and the other maid went to have their check-up to be sure they are clear of TB.

I was left to care for my grandmother when my aunt took a rest and I really feel helpless for I don’t really know how to care for her. She is restless and I have to accompany her and walk around and attend to her. I can’t do anything else but watch her incase she scratch herself. She has a bad wound on her right elbow which she scratch till bleed twice. Have to make sure she don’t scratch her hand.

Then uncle came back with the maid so relax a bit. After that my aunt did her work while the maid look after my grandmother then it was my turn to look after my little cousin when she comes home. It isn’t an easy job. Louisa came and took me out for lunch. At least that cheer me up a bit.

Check my emails with my aunt laptop (still using it now) and found a mail that upset me. The others are all normal mail. After that, tried to make my cousin go sleep. In the end I gave up. Feeling so lousy and down. Don’t know how to cheer myself up. Nothing seems to be going anywhere good for me. When would things start to look up to me. Haih…

Woke up at 5.45am and prepare to meet at Melanie’s place at 6.30am but I was late and arrive only at 7am. Melanie only wake up when I just arrive. She claims she tells me to be there 6.30am sharp was due to Malaysian time Christopher arrive bout 7.20am and we left for Malacca at 7.30am. Before we go off, Christopher had a McDonald’s big breakfast where Melanie took the hash brown.

We arrive bout 9am and pick Elaine to go for Bah Kut Teh. When we reach the shop, we forgot bout parking ticket and forgot to ask Elaine bout it. We only realise it when the parking attentant came and issue samans. They ran to the car while I sat in the shop. It was embarassing for we were the only one who got saman. Elaine totally forgot bout the parking ticket. Haih… but due to her innocent look and Melanie acting adorable (I think), the parking attendant decided not to issue the saman.

After breakfast, we went to The Kiss Studio to have our picture taken but their schedule were pack. I didn’t get the number and call to make appointment. It was unfortunate. But Melanie seems extra hyper after that. She started teasing me left, right, center. She was at full steam. She thinks it is due to the meat intake for she hasn’t have that much meat since she went on a vegetarian diet. Believe me, she was super crazy.

Since we can’t take pictures, we went round to take pictures with Malacca town. Christopher has 2 cameras with him. We walk down Jongker street and look at things. We walk in one shop and they were selling this cute hairbands that make was like those in the 80’s. Me, Melanie and Elaine each took one and wore it for the entire day. Melanie and Elaine both bought pink while I bought yellow color. Christopher had fun taking candid shots of us Once tired and it was getting hot, we long for air-condition. We heard that back in KL it was raining while it was freaking hot there in Malacca. We stop by at the first chicken ball rice stall there near Jongker street and have lunch. It was delicious.

Once done, we heard off to Elaine’s house and have a session of mahjong. Christopher had a fun time learning it and he won a few rounds. Not bad for a first timer. Before this, he was eating kacang while playing. He miss a tile which would help him win that round due to busy eating kacang. He put away the kacang and concentrate on the game. It was fun. At least not like Melanie who cry and full of expression. When she doesn’t know which tile to throw out, she row the dice to decide. Even number throw this tile, if not throw the other tile if get odd number. The whole session was filled with laughters. Anger for throwing wrong tile out, desperate for everyone was waiting for one tile to win. Melanie won a few times due to taking the tile she was waiting for to win. How lucky she was.

We played till it was time to go for satay celup. We then head off to have satay celup. We just ate and ate. Ate till we were happy. The satay celup is just delicious. Then we wanted to tapau "Chai Tau Kuih" but no luck for the stall wasn’t open. We then drop Elaine back and went home.

We had a fun time fooling around, having fun and pretending we were a bunch of Singaporian. So we were extra carefree. Then Christopher was kind for driving us all around. When we were back in KL, I saw a car plate number 9989 and I was like "Nice number 9989". Then Christopher mind was like "Pong". His mind was still at mahjong. He was thinking one triple then what to do with the 8. Haha… We have a good laugh in the car. It was a fun trip and we have lots of laughters. We plan to do it again soon but not sure when All hands itching to play mahjong Most of all, want to eat all we can Next trip we would stay over so can eat more and have more whacky time and more mahjong time

P.S. Christopher if you read this blog, please remember to send me the pictures Thank you.

It’s been quite a week. So many things happen but the least expected was that I was put in a dangerous environment. My aunt’s maid was diagnose with TB after taking her for check-up for she was coughing blood. So that raise up the alarm. The scariest part is the children could be affected with it for they are always with the maid. The youngest cousin is coughing already so it is worrying.

I would be around here for the time being to help my aunt out. Since she is lack of one maid and my grandmother need full attention, I would be around to help with the kids. What fun I would have and tired out. But the kids enjoy my company so it is cool. I have to help out also when my aunt takes the kids out for medical check out and also when take my grandma out for check-out.

Just the other night I bath the kids. They have fun but I got extra fun when I got wet by them bathing them. It isn’t an easy task for I was drain out looking after them who are young and energetic. The eldest is at least easy for he can bath himself but I have beg him to go and bath. At first verbally then I got tired and he started talking online. So it was virtual nagging him to go bath. Haha…save some energy but tired the fingers typing

This would be a fun time for I would be with them during the day and night I can go out and have fun still but I think I would look like an old lady. My aunt say that I can  have friends over to help me out and visit me since daytime I’m stuck here either seeing the small kids or seeing to my grandma Wonder when I look like an old lady who is so drain out, would anyone still want me Hehe…

After 3 months of brushing teeth and getting blood all the time, I finally consult a dentist. Went there and do scalling and all I feel in my mouth that entire time was blood. Rinse mouth, all blood and it didn’t stop bleeding. The dentist have to brush my teeth then put something on it to stop bleeding Then told me I have serve Gingvitis. Stupid gums. Why do I have sensitive gums?

The dentist then gave me antibiotic and swelling medicine. I have to change my toothbrush and toothpaste. I have to use extra soft toothbrush head, use battery operated toothbrush, Sensodyne toothpaste the green one and use Listerine. When I left the clinic, i was given the medicine, some gum gel to rub on gums, some mouth rinse and all this cost RM80 plus scalling. Freaking expensive. Then I have to change my brushing routine.

In the morning, brush then rinse with listerine. Then the night, I have to brush, then put toothpaste on the gums and let it dry before I rinse with listerine. I have to do this for the next 3-4 tubes of toothpaste. I’m not to share the toothpaste. Which means for the next year and a half I would be doing this damn routine. Wish I can escape this Have to visit the dentist for follow-up in April Today, or for the past 2 days, the back of my right big tooth hurts like hell when i brush it. Hopefully it would recover soon. Hate this… Someone save me from this please…

Just download this program to download songs since so bored at home… Fast internet with wireless and don’t download is a pity. The download speed went as high as 318kbps when downloading the program file. Then in less than 24 hours i manage to download bout 100 songs ^_^ Mostly korean songs from the show Love Story in Harvard, A Sad Love Story and some other songs This is so cool… Only can be done when at home or aunty’s place Hpstel can’t for banned for downloading stuff like this

Gong Xi Fatt Choi!!! Been a busy week. Lots to prepare for the coming new year Today is the fifth day of Chinese New Year. In 2 days time it is “Yean yean sang yeat” or everyone’s birthday. This is when Yu Sang is bought to “Low Sang”
So far my new year has been very nice. Was in Kuala Kangsar on Chinese New Year Eve. Had dinner then went to bed early. My cousins came over. One of them ask me if wanna go play pool. Haha… but I can’t for Kuala Kangsar is a small area and it isn’t safe to go out at that hour Next morning went to church where the priest gave everyone an Angpau Surprise? Hehe… I was ^_^ Then my cousins came to visit Have some fun too… They came over for dinner also. In the evening came back to pack before leaving to Kuala Lumpur to visit more relatives My dad’s staff came over… Yup, Mr. and Mrs. CRV came. Don’t ask me why call them that. They are actually Mr and Mrs Lim Since Mr Lim drives a CRV and he once work at my dad’s office and he is refer to that since me and my sis don’t know his name. So till today he is known as Mr CRV.

Second day, there was no water in Kuala Kangsar. Luckily I was to go to Kuala Lumpur Reach there and have lunch at my aunt’s place at SS2 before we went to check-in Prince Hotel in Kuala Lumpur. My dad make bookings there so went there to stay in the apartment suite. It is a very nice place to stay. My two young cousins, Janice and Michelle came over to stay with me They are both very attach to me and my sis Me and my sis have a fun time sleeping when the two little gals tried to push us off the bed when they sleep ^_^ Stayed there till today Went to KLCC yesterday. The building was shaking but bo one really realize it. It’s due to building structure but my mum and aunt panic. I went and scare them more. Told my mum why not tell the guards bout it since my sis pointed to a guard close by. Told my mum to go to the guard and tell him that the building is shaking and there might be an earthquake. Evaculate everyone immediately. Was laughing till my mum actually wanted to do it but my dad stop her in time
Earlier today, woke up late then pack before heading to aunt’s place for lunch. When reached there, there was a house opposite her house who asked the Lion Dance association to have the Lion Dance ceremony at their house. Went over there to watch Been a long time since I last watch it ^_^ Then after lunch I went to meet Guoy at condo. While waiting for him, I saw someone familiar there at condo. Look like Su Ann so I called her to see if it is her. As the phone rang and that person seem to be looking for her phone, that person was really Su Ann. How small a world to be. Lucky me she didn’t ask for angpau like the previous night when I called her Left KL then and headed to Kuala Kangsar. My other aunty and cousins just arrive there so going there to meet them. Met my elder cousins ^_^ where the eldest is nearly 20 years my senior She bought her 4 kids along and they are half my age Have dinner together before I leave. My other cousin then ask me if I want to play half-life there. How nice for I can’t play since my mum got to work tom. Haih…. What a waste. Doesn’t matter. Chuah Sing Weil!!! We’ll play another time. Hehe… Remember to call me when you play
But the only sad part is my good sai-lo is going to Australia tom morning Mr Chew Wei Sern aka cucumber is taking a flight to Australia and begin his adventure Wish him well and going to miss my sai-lo… At least no one to chase me and tickle me now Oops… did I say that loud ^_^ Take care and hope to meet you soon…. maybe see you there in Australia when I come visit you